The worst days of my life..

Hey guys! Sorry for the late update and instead of my new hairstyle, I decided to postpone it.. Because this hair are seriously too short for me to tie them up.
So here's what I gonna blog about for today and it was taken a few days ago till now....
What really happen this few days, erm.. Kinda long story to explain everything out but I'm still gonna blog some of it :)
Here....



Previously I wasn't in a good mood due to my unwell-ness , the stress of common test that is coming up and some personnel problem. Because I have to take back whatever position of my common test that I have lost the other time, I have to get it back, so I decided to revise almost everyday after school and weekends thus we didn't make it, cause of the stress that I have, it brought me to a high fever making my mood pissed! So I don't really sure the reason why we almost break up or what, but I know I'm too rush over everything, and that totally brought me to a quarrel with CW -.-

We have giving each other attitude lately, quarrel over little things, ignoring one another like we never before =\ ( that's what I hate the most, I hate ignoring people, I always feel so guilty, etc.. ) here comes the day where I dream until we have broke up and was crying in my dream which never happen before :( AT ALL! After I woke up I saw this super long message and it really says he wanna 'break'.... I totally gone speechless— yeah, stupidly enough I apologized for my every mistake for these few days..

—A FEW DAYS LATER....—

# 2 March ,

– Things start to happen again –
I asked him out because :

Firstly, I thought he wanna meet.
Secondly, I just wanna be alone for the day but perhaps I think calling him pei me would be better.
Thirdly, because Sarah couldn't make it for revising together on that day..
.... And CW thought that I'm treating him like a "spare tire" ZZZ
Was super angry and sad of course when he reply that, my thoughts suddenly changed! I think that maybe I really should be ALONE !!
Later on, people starts to saw my post and commented on it and ken start to chat me too, saying that he wanna come.. ( that's where I start to confuse ) cause CW gives me those reply that really hurt me a lot and guess that we shouldn't meet, so I allowed ken to come. Ending up ken is like (( I don't even know how to explain that expression of him )) I feel that ex and bf can never be together!

— AWHILE LATER —

Ken said that he going home.... So CW and I continue walking around and around the mall till we go to the opposite block for the rest of the entire day....

— DURING THE TEXT —

While I'm in a super nice mood, talking nicely and happily here come the problem again! Don't know what reason we start to talk about the past.. And this reminded everything, ALL THE HAPPY AND SAD MOMENT THAT WE HAVE! You should remember them, even though you don't, it doesn't matter either, it's good that you have forgotten everything but do you'll ever heard that, " A guy can easily forget everything within days or worse within hours, but for a girl she will never forget everything no matter it's good or bad! " But I wish to forget all of them, just that it keep glue to my brain and I'm trying to change it back but you make it worse. All I wanted was just being back a best friend like my previous ex, we still chit-chat , play and laugh without thinking back to the past. Our past have starting to fade.... Thus it took a year plus for it..


Haizzzz.... "Someone" called me to ignore you but you know that I hate ignoring people, cause I don't like people to ignore me so I don't ignore them. Usually I only ignore people either they are annoying me very much or they keep talking nonsense -.-zzz then I will ignore, but for some small cases I don't wish to, and hope you don't make it worse....

It's so useless saying now, I can't do anything either right?? What can I say? I called you not to smoke because I'm trying to quit but ended up you smoke with your friends, so now you have regretted for starting, it's kinda good that you do! So you won't continue the path.
– JUST GONNA WITH YOU ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR OWN LIFE AND THIS ALL I CAN SAY –

SORRY FOR ANYTHING IF IM WRONG AT ANY POINT...





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*i apologize for no picture imported, cause was heading to Malaysia, so didn't use any lappy*