I'm back to blog. Cause I doesn't want someone to read this basically I know he will somehow, somewhat read this anyway. 

So I guess things was kinda sort out a few weeks or a month ago. But then slowly day after day it kinda twisted around again. Quarrel almost everyday or perhaps is EVERY BLOODY SINGLE DAY! Nevermind, I'm just too tired to be bothered. Just sick and tired of the same cycle repeating over and over again. Why? Why did I even choose you over 2,579,827,924 people out there? Why? Fate? Maybe.. But I don't think so. Just doesn't know what to do next. 

Everyday, I started a text, every morning text and goodnight text. I started a conversation with you. I started to entertain you. You even asked me to give you morning and goodnight text. Which most people should know that I bloody hate texting people first. You should be glad that I choose you over everything, I put you in my first priority. And now you say I give you one word reply, then you doesn't know what to reply. So you just "lol, ok" means expecting me to continue on with your sentence ?! Which mean when you always "ok" and "yea" me you allow me to "lol, ok" you back? Then I will do so next time. But make sure that you don't fucking give me attitude when I do so. I'm bloody tired, both physically and mentally! I'm sick. But I pretended I wasn't. I entertain you back. What I got back was bloody full of shits from you. I have enough. Just enough. You have limits, I have as well. Think of others not just yourself. You are human and so am I. You think you cannot hander the attitude I have, so am I. But what can I do. I chose you in the first place. I accepted you, and I have to accept every other bullshits along. 

I have plenty of heart break in me is just that you never know. You will be in tears if you were in my shoes. It may seem easy on the outside but definitely you never knew what I did to myself every single night. 

This year I got much worse with my own attitude, I can't control them somehow, but I'm trying to. I try to talk nicely and you come along and make it worser. You want quarrel then so be it. I just can't be bothered with any bullshits anymore. I sacrifice whatever I have within me. If you think it's easy to be me then try stand in my position. 

Enough just enough of bullshits. I'm done!

Chinese New Year day 2

Day 2 of Chinese New Year....

Too lazy to post it twice so check out my dayre.me/rosesxoxo instead >< 

Currently just gonna switch everything there. Pardon me. 

Chinese New Year Day 1

Day 1 : 

Happie Chinese to all ! 🍊🍊

My ootd for day one mah 

Pardon that sticker, due to that unglam and sleepy face cause last night watched "the lion men" until 1am then reach home and 2am then sleep, woke up early in the morning. 

To my most loved heels from Charles & Keith. Cause anchor mah!

and painted my nails, ombré pink, blue and dark blue.

just more selfie....

No fliter, No edit. Kinda ugly but who cares lurh! Too lazy to be bored mah. 

Movie with family later on.... Update later lorh..

School life

Too busy to be blogging for the past don't know how many months but here, I'm back. 

Currently just busy in school and exam is on the way, just in about one more month times or les than that. Time really fly. 

Don't know what to blog either, but cause someone wanted me to do so then shall do a random one instead . Hehehe!

(20 Jan)

Let's start from the first day of school, 2 January 2014....

Never a good day since the first day. Was caught for hair colour and send home to re-dye them black. Though I hated everything in school, but I get to be in the same class as 'my guy', and even though was a bit complicated but I will wait for the day to pass and see what will happen next. 

You know I don't give up things easily though I always said "I give up". I may be saying "I give up" a thousand and zillion times but I don't do that for once. Things are really messed up on 4 January but I hope we can bring it back to the past. I may have hurt you much a few weeks ago but I promise that I will never do it ever again, I cross my heart. 

(21 Jan)

You know sometimes things don't work the way we want it to be. Just in order to make things right this time round I wanna do everything that I can to make you happie, as long as you are happie, I'm happie. I don't mind holding things back, I learn to control and i just don't want what happen in the past to happen in the future. Sowwie for being sided face, cause all I wanted was to be happie. A happie relationship. Though we wasn't really considered as 'together' but you know how much I want you back so badly. I willing to suffer everything for you. As long as I get you back and stay by your side forever. 

I'm sorry for making you angry with all my stupid mistake everytime. Making you jealous etc. I promise not to do that ever again. 

I know you won't allow me to do any of this in the above but I just wanna make things right. 

(22 Jan)

Sometimes I always have this thoughts in my mind. Making me feel so hopeless about myself. Making me feel so useless with what I'm doing. I hope things wasn't going to turn out the way i thought it might be. I feel that false hopes everytime. I have many negative thoughts but everything that we did together and what you said to me and done to me. It just make me feel like I totally have no chance to it. 

(27 Jan)

But now .... 27 January 2014 , my beloved Cyrus told me everything and we are back to how we used to be. My day have come.. Finally.... I swear I will never let go off you ever again! I promise to stay forever! Nothing can break us up, NEVER! I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY! And my heart is just locked to you. We belong to each other, no one can ever break it. I hope things will back to usual soon. I'm looking forward to be with you everyday even though teachers are always separating both of us in school. I just miss you! ❤️

Let me end here.... Many the next gonna blog about my CNY. Can't wait for that. Hippy! See you guys during new year if possible ~

(Oh ! And.... I did this one many different days so it might be a bit messed up but those date are when I type those messages.)